Mabes starts kindergarten on Monday. I've been excited for her to start, because she seems so ready. She's been getting a bit stir-crazy lately and I think the challenge will be good for her. And I'm not going to complain about some free time. We've been counting down and doing fun activities each day to prepare her. I thought I was ready. I'm not.
I'm not ready for her to become a real kid, and learn all the things that come with that. She's going to learn words like butt, booger, and fart (you have no idea how much it pained me to type that--I prefer booty, bogie, and toot), and I know if that's the worst she hears I should count myself lucky. She's going to learn about Hannah Montana and Justin Bieber (though hopefully she'll have her mother's discerning taste and still not get what the hype is). She may start caring about how she looks and what boys are cute. She could be teased. She's going to be away from me for almost 6.5 hours a day, and I just keep thinking, "but what if she's sad? What if she needs a hug before going back to playing?"
I keep reminding myself that she will be fine, in fact, she'll probably be like me. I don't remember anything that happened at my first day of kindergarten, but I do remember skipping into the kitchen at home and yelling, "I LIKE kindergarten!" and feeling completely overjoyed. But I realize that come Monday, I am officially a mom of a school-aged kid. Other kids will look at me and think I'm a grown-up. I feel like I should know things. Somehow I thought I'd be ready for this, that I'd feel grown-up and have everything together. I thought I'd be ready for her to start school, ready for her to grow up, ready for her to learn from her own experiences. I'm not, and I'm frantically looking for the pause button.
When did she get so big?
And proving my age and the new chapter of our lives, we looked at minivans today and test drove a swagger wagon. I may be in love. We didn't have time to shop for mom jeans, though.
4 comments:
Yay for minivans!! I seriously love mine.
I very often wish that life was like Tivo, because then, if something awesome happened, I can just hit record and I'll be able to go back and watch it over and over and over.
I can't imagine sending my kids to school, but I know it'll happen before I know it. Freaky.
Your post makes me sad! I tried not to even think about any of that stuff when I was going through it last week with Owen. Mabes is going to do so well in kindergarten.
Oh, and thanks for your comments. Things are looking up. And I'm so excited for Dave and his new job! You totally deserve to splurge on a minivan! Everything's coming up WHITLEY!!!
I've seen that Swagger wagon video before & love it- probably because we have one. They're the best!
As far as those 3 'bad' words go- I must not be the greatest mom because my boys already know all about boogers. I didn't know any other substitute word. And since they're boys they laugh at farts but they don't know any word for them. Toot is the only word I use.
Yay for the swagger waggon! :) I will be thinking about you today....kindergarten.....it is a tough one to say goodbye! If you need to come over....I'm here today! Sure love ya! If you find the pause button, let me know! I need one too!
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